Cʜᴀʀʟᴇs 'C H U C K' Hᴀɴsᴇɴ (
suicidemission) wrote2013-12-06 01:32 am
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like a match to gasoline



i see through your clothes
your nerve damage shows
trying not to feel
anything that's realʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ʟᴏsɪɴɢ ᴄᴏɴᴛʀᴏʟ



i see through your clothes
your nerve damage shows
trying not to feel
anything that's real
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He’s sort of watching Raleigh, eyes crinkling at the edges just enough that someone perceptive enough would be able to tell that it’s from amusement and not from a smirk.
Becket’s all bundled up in his jacket - his jacket, Chuck’s Striker Eureka jacket and it’s fitted comfortably right there around Raleigh’s shoulders. It looks good, really good on him and Chuck likes it, likes how it’s sort of like a claim even though Chuck’s too stubborn and bull-headed to take what’s been offered to him.
Chuck picks his head up and leans back against the couch, an arm draping over the back of it, ankle resting on his knee as he barks a laugh.
“Always need savin’, don’t you, Becket?” Always gotta have someone clearing a path for him.
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"It's good though, that it's you." Raleigh tilts his head back on the couch and closes his eyes with a bit of a smile. "You do it right, but that's what you do." He almost adds because you're the best, but he's not drunk, just a little loose and he can stop his mouth from running.
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He doesn’t move when Raleigh gets up and comes over, just lets his arm stay where it is. If he wanted, he was close enough to lift it and slide his fingers through blond hair, but he keeps his hand still, clutching at the couch cushion when Raleigh leans back. Raleigh’s head does bump his wrist, but he just – stays put, fingers digging into plush material.
“It’s ‘cause I’m the best.” If Raleigh won’t say it, Chuck will for him. “Good at smashin’ shit up, yeah?”
Kaiju, relationships. Chuck’s good at ruining it all.
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"The best at saving people." He corrects him kind of earnestly for not actually moving to do it, but he's finally warm, and he can feel Chuck's arm across the back of the couch. It's nice, even more comfortable now than because he'd screwed up shit with his joke. "I've smashed more stuff than you. Gipsy twice and that's only counting jaegers."
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He continues to surprise Chuck all the time - Chuck's not the only one with a fucking question mark hovering over his head. Raleigh's ability to joke about smashing up Gipsy Danger throws Chuck off completely. So much so that he chokes back a guffaw, arm casually and totally unintentionally sliding down to rest around Raleigh's shoulders.
"Striker was a Mark V," he shoots back, though his tone lacks the malicious quality Raleigh is likely used to by this time. "He counts as two; Fastest, newest, first and last of his kind. And, my total kill count is eleven. World record. 'Sides, killin' kaiju, that's savin' people. So really, you're just verifying what I said, mate."
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"But you don't really smash a kaiju. It's more like blowing them up or cutting them down. Gipsy cut them down with the sword or blew them with the canon. Striker had those chest missiles and the sting blades. So yeah, saving people not smashing things."
He half shrugs under Chuck's arm. "I don't want to argue about it though. Too tired."
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He's tired. For once, Chuck isn't feeling antagonistic or temperamental. He's calmed down considerably, though there's a tinge of anger still in the muscles of his jaw. His hold is loose and he shifts to allow Raleigh room to lean, though there's a faint hint of possessiveness in the way his fingers curl into the leather of the jacket.
"Nap."
Over half of the things Chuck says are a command, this is no different.
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"I can follow that order."
He closes his eyes and settles in feeling better than he had for most of the time since they left the Shatterdome in Hong Kong. After a few moments his breathing evens out.
"At until Mako shows up to spring us and kill us herself." He mutters and suppresses a yawn before eventually, finally dropping off to sleep against Chuck.
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Raleigh gets comfortable, leans heavily against him and Chuck does curl his arm protectively around him, fingers digging into his arm while he sits there awake, guarding the sleeping Raleigh.
He sits like that for a long time, letting Raleigh doze against him, carefully shifting and adjusting until Raleigh's head ends up cradled carefully in his lap, Chuck's fingers carefully and with a surprising amount of tenderness sliding through his hair.
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Becky, on the other hand, is having the worst day of her short career in front of the cameras. She was walked out on, by two of the biggest heroes of the century during what should have been the interview to sky rocket her career. She bursts open the door of the room they'd been assigned to and stops in her tracks because Raleigh Becket is asleep in Chuck Hansen's lap--hell, the younger man has the softest expression she's ever seen on his face and he's got his hand in the older ranger's hair.
"Ha! I knew it- You are together!"
Raleigh, so used to leaping to his feet at the sound of the Wall's sirens or the blare of the drop alert rolls off the couch and to his feet immediately, in an almost, but not quite defensive position even while he's blinking the sleep from his eyes. The dazed look in his eyes is gone almost immediately and he rolls his eyes, sinking back onto the couch and running a hand over his face.
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It's nice. It won't last, because Chuck's an asshole and an idiot and completely sure that he's not really good enough of a person to ever be with someone like Raleigh Becket, but for now he's enjoying it and allowing himself to breath and just...exist without having to be somewhere or think about a war that had seemed never ending.
The door flies open and startles him out of this moment of calm and his face automatically arranges itself into his scowl. Raleigh's sitting up and moving the moment that the door opens and so is Chuck, though he doesn't sit back down when he sees who it is.
"You."
He's advancing on her and while he isn't going to swing, he's going to say some very nice things and urge her to leave. Now.
"Haven't you don't enough goddamn damage for one day? Get out!"
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It was even kind of fun watching Chuck yell at someone for him, rather than at him.
"Damage?!" Becky's practically shrieking at she shrinks back into the wall away from the mass of angry ranger in front of her. "What damage?!" The only damage she'd seen done was to her ratings.
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Which...the fear factor is sort of what he's going for, even if he'd never lay hands on her. Ever.
"Lemme tell you something, princess. Y'can't even begin to know what us Rangers go through, yeah? So not sticking to the script and showing us pictures like that without fuckin' warning us is a goddamn shitty thing to do and y'know what? That's earned you a real special place on my shit list, so I suggest you get the fuck out right now, before I get angry."
Which he already is, actually.
"And if you don't, I will fuck up your career so bad you'll be scrubbing toilets at an extended stay motel by the time I'm bloody finished. Out. Now, before I call security."
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He perched his elbow on his knee and his head on his hand watching as Becky got smaller and smaller in direct correspondence to the way Chuck seemed to make himself bigger and bigger. At Chuck's threat to call security, she scurried right back out the door she'd came in through.
"See? Saving me again, and not one thing broken."
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They had one good moment - one they can't get back, one they might not ever get again because Chuck doesn't know how to do things right, and she ruined it.
Chuck's angry. He's frustrated, and his heart is twisting in uncomfortable ways at how cold and empty his lap feels now that Raleigh's awake and sitting upright.
"Bullshit," he mutters, dragging his hands down his face, heart still pounding from the brief adrenaline rush. "Fucking -- bullshit."
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Carefully, so Chuck knows what he's doing Raleigh presses his side against the Australian's and reaches out to wrap his fingers loosely around Chuck's wrist to tug it away from his face.
"It's okay. Well, not entirely, but you made a bad situation much better. Mali will be here soon and we will go back to the hotel and read or sleep or something."
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He barks a laugh, but he lets Raleigh touch him, lets that warm hand grip his wrist and pull on him. It's rare Chuck lets people touch him; he's not anywhere near as tactile as Raleigh can be and physical affection isn't something he's very familiar with or comfortable receiving.
That touch though, Raleigh's proximity - it's nice.
"Think I might've made it worse." Surely, Becky will be making some calls despite Chuck's threat but in the moment Chuck's having a hard time giving a fuck about anything beyond how warm Raleigh is pressed up against his side like that.
"Aren't y'gettin' hot?" He looks over at him, curious, eyes traveling from chin to chest to hips, taking in the form of Raleigh wrapped up in Chuck's bomber jacket. His cheeks flush a little, and he looks away.
"Looks good on you."
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Raleigh brings their arms down to rest on their legs and nods firmly at Chuck's question. "You made it better for me at least." At the rest of it, he shrugs.
"The world is on our side right now not hers."
He is admittedly getting too warm. His sweater was made for cold lodgings in Alaska and Chuck's jacket by itself is insulated against the wind and for heat. That's not even taking into account Chuck's body heat right up against his side, but Raleigh isn't sweating yet so he's not going to give up the jacket yet.
"A little warm." He makes no move to slide away or shrug off the jacket. Instead, his ears and neck start to turn pink at the way Chuck looks him over and compliments him. He speaks in an attempt to cover his embarrassment.
"We used to have matching ones. Tendo's got them in storage somewhere. I was thinking about giving Mako my old one, but I don't know what she would think about it." He doesn't say he'd be keeping Yancy's for himself, but it hangs there in the air. "My coat from Alaska isn't exactly photogenic. I've been hearing complaints."
/rubs against
So -- he's good for something, that helps. He's been fighting feelings of inadequacy ever since Pitfall succeeded. Now that the war was over, now that there was no use for Jaegers or their pilots, Chuck's kind of lost and these press tours buzzing and pressing and pushing him for answers about what he's going to do next have him tense and angry and volatile at all times.
"Maybe she'll can it, leave us the fuck alone," he mutters, letting Raleigh bring his hand down and away from his face entirely.
He glances back over at Raleigh in time to see the pink blush spread over his neck and cheeks and ears, and he almost smiles, but it fades immediately.
"That's 'cause it's bloody awful, Becket. Get rid of that flea ridden thing."
Wear Gipsy's. Wear a new one. Wear Chuck's. Anything but that awful thing from Alaska.
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Raleigh's watching Chuck carefully. He thinks for just a moment that Chuck's face is going to clear and he's going to be graced with one of those rare Hansen smiles, but it doesn't happen. He half shrugs at the flea ridden comment. He doubted it actually had bugs, but the stains left by the everyday welding certainly made it look like it could be infested.
He sighs like he's making a large concession, but his lips are twisted half up. "I'll see where Tendo's got them, or if he can have them shipped."
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He knocks his knee against Raleigh's, gesturing to his jacket that's got Raleigh looking all kinds of cozy and stupidly fucking adorable.
Chuck fluctuates a lot between wanting to punch that puppy face and wanting to kiss it.
"Please do. Least try and look as good as me."
Tiny, tiny little grin.
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"I don't know about that. I'm getting a bit past my prime, and looking like you's a high bar."
He knows he's handsome, but he also knows he's got the tale-tell signs of the way his life has marked him on his face and body, and that he's only just beginning to reach a healthy weight for his height. Chuck, on the other hand, is built like a brick house, and handsome to boot.
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"Oh, God."
Chuck makes a rude gesture with his hand, then snorts.
"Don't start that shit again," he says absently, letting his hand drop and rest on Raleigh's knee. "That 'old shit'. Christ, you're starting to sound like Herc."
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"Well, not that old." He admits, still smiling. "But don't tell him I said that."
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"I'm not tellin' him anything, mate, that's your funeral."
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I need groceries but I don't want to move.
Moving is overrated
I have no food though..../sighs/
hmm that is a dilemma.....
Think I'll go at two maybe...when the lunch crowd is gone
This is a good plan
=3
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Noooot sure where you want to go with this one next
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